Friday, June 25, 2010

Is it seriously the end of June?? Where the heck did it come from? 2010 certainly has brought on a lot of new challenges. Balancing the immense happiness of 2 incredible babies with the immense sadness of a parent suffering is no easy task! I guess everything happens to keep us grounded and human. If my mom weren't sick- I'd float away with joy. My kids are crazy-awesome. New challenges and chances to learn (and teach) present themselves every waking minute of every day. Needless to say, I go to bed utterly exhausted! Addie is... becoming a 2 year old? LOL is that a nice way to put it? (considering she is 2 1/2) She needs "corrected" about every 3 minutes because she has totally lost the words "please" and "thank you" out of her vocabulary. But, I've been expecting her to start testing the boundaries and believe me, she has been! So, like I said- we are all learning. ;) But, at 2 1/2 she is a pretty cool 30 year old. People who don't even know her have stopped me in an aisle at Target to tell me what an old soul she is. And that is so true! Some days she is like a 10 year old... Other days she is like an 80 year old with infinite wisdom... Yes, she is 2 1/2- but until you've met her and experienced her amazing-ness then you just don't know what I'm talking about. My son is equally charming. I'm not just saying that because I'm his mom. ;) I love the way he stretches for 3 minutes in the morning after being swaddled all night. I love the way his hairline shifts and his eyes turn into half moons when he smiles. The way he grunts when he hears me shaking his bottle to mix the formula in (yes, I've been remembering to add formula!) :) It's definitely been interesting fitting marriage into the mix of 2 babies! You absolutely have to make a conscience decision to work at your marriage or you will be swallowed up in the day-to-day business! Luckily, we have amazing family who will hang out with our kiddos while we eat dinner together or while we just go to the mall and window shop. It's a must for busy parents!
Mom is done with chemo and radiation!! YAY!!! It was a bumpy road for her (all of us) to navigate and I wish I could say we were at the end... We are (she is) only 1/3 of the way through... after an 8 week treatment hiatus she will have a major surgery to remove the cancer. Then she will endure a more intense round of chemo (length of treatment is currently unknown). Then she will go back under the knife for a more minor surgery. AND THEN this hellish ordeal should be over. And we can lift our glasses and toast a cancer-free woman! Doubt the remainder is gonna be that easy- but we will all be pulling for her, that's for sure! Communication is key when dealing with this mess! Because it, too (meaning cancer) is a chance to learn and teach. To learn how to be giving of time and emotion for those in need. And to teach our children how to be compassionate, caring people. So, please stop and say a little prayer for my mom. She is a strong woman, but this is a tough fight. One that I wouldn't wish on any family or person any where in the world.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

man, i 'm not doing a good job of keeping this as updated as I would like. BUT, in my defense- I have 2 children and a husband (and 2 dogs and a cat) that all require varying amounts of attention. I have a full time job. I have a home for sale... It's a busy life. :)
My little man is over 3 months old now and he literally grows right before my very eyes. He is such a nice little boy. He is sleeping so good! I just swaddle him up and put him in his bed (sometimes still wide eyed) and he just goes to sleep. He usually sleeps until 7 or 7:30, but this morning he (so kindly) slept until after 8!! He doesn't always love car rides, but I think with his crazy head of hair he just gets hot in his carseat. Add-a-roo is growing and learning and changing like a weed, too (figure of speech- I don't think weeds really learn!) ;) Today she said "mommy, you are a great and excellent mommy" wow... amazing coming from a little girl who isn't even 2 1/2. i'm incredibly blessed. and I must say, I'm a lil obsessed with my children. They are just amazing....
Unfortunately, I can't blame my being busy on the fact that our house is for sale. It's been a month without ONE showing! Last summer when our house was on the market we had 2-3 showings a week! It kept us crazy busy and we almost lost our minds... (I'm not gonna go into the drama about the buyer we had that backed out last minute causing us to obtain a lawyer). I really have no "vibe" this time around... Which is a bummer, but ya never know what might happen. We have an open house tomorrow. Maybe someone will love it and we can proceed with buying our dream house near our parents! Yes- we wanna be near our parents! They play such a huge role in our lives and in the lives of our children, so it would be a blessing to be closer to them.
My mom is half way done with chemo and radiation for her cancer. But, don't ask me how she is doing because I'm still not convinced she is being honest with me or my sisters. Which can be bothersome because I wanna be supportive and I wanna do what I can to help her. but she doesn't wanna be a burden. Is it socially acceptable to slap someone and tell them they aren't a burden? ;) I'm guess-timating that her surgery will be near the end of August. I bet she is dreading it and can't wait for it all at the same time. I look back at old pictures and just wonder 'did she have cancer when this was taken.' and I look back at pictures and feel a sense of uncertainty because I don't know what the future holds... I KNOW with all of my heart that my mom is gonna beat this, but I also know that this has changed my family forever. And I'm a creature of habit. I don't like change. Maybe it's a change for the better? maybe we can all find a way to turn this into an opportunity to be better people, be stronger people, be a closer-knit family... Only time will tell. And until then, we will face each day with the uncertainty that cancer brings. Damn, cancer....