Thursday, December 3, 2015

My rebuttal to the editor of The New York Daily News:

My rebuttal to the editor of The New York Daily News:

I don’t want to make assumptions, however with the brazen remarks made on the cover of your magazine, I’m taking it that you do not consider yourself a Christian person? (Please forgive me if I’m wrong about this- I mean no disrespect) However, sir (or ma’am?) I would like to provide you with some insight…..

For years, decades, centuries certain individuals and groups of people have not only requested, but demanded that God be removed from all aspects of daily life- no praying in public schools, no nativity scenes around the holidays, even attempting to change the words to our precious pledge of allegiance all to divert attention from The Almighty. Well, if you are unaware- when one does not invite Christ into his life or heart than one does not have a relationship with Him. It does not mean that He doesn’t love each individual on this Earth. In fact, He is waiting eagerly for people to seek him (Matthew 7:7 “ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you”). Why do you cry out that “God is not fixing this” without knowing what His word says about mankind? (or without having the faith that He will do what He said He would do?) (Genesis 21:1 “…when God speaks, we can trust He will carry out whatever it was He said He would do”)
He told us that this is a fallen world, man is flawed and innocent babies are born into a world of sin. He sent His son to us for a reason- that reason is the world had gone astray and lost individuals needed hope and forgiveness. I believe in my heart He is returning sooner than later and I assure you- He will fix this.  He mourns death, however he cannot control man.  (Psalm 34:18 “The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and He saves the crushed in spirit).  He mourned His own Son on the cross.  Nonetheless, He can’t force a person to love Him, seek Him, honor Him, or follow Him.  Thankfully, He can offer unending grace and mercy to those who repent and are truly sorry. I can’t imagine how one can blatantly disrespect God and His daily miraculous works. Lucky for you and I, He is very forgiving and He does not fret when people question His existence.  (Isaiah 55:8-9 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my way higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts”)
This world has become a place of greed, violence, instant satisfaction, sloth, and hatred.  One where we are numb to tragic news, where lying and stealing are so normal that it doesn’t even phase us. (2 Timothy 3:1-5 " But know this, that in the last days difficult times will come, for people will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boasters, arrogant, slanderers, disobedient to parents, ungrateful, unholy, hardhearted, irreconcilable, slanderous without self-control, savage with no interest for what is good, traitors, reckless, conceited, loving pleasure rather than loving God, maintaining a form of godliness, but denying its power. Avoid these people.") When an individual has an evil plan, he will go through with it. But if he seeks God’s guidance first- he will not. I can guarantee it. Whether you believe it or not, sir (or ma’am?) God numbered the hairs on your head…. As he did with every single victim of every single mass killing that has ever occurred. I do not have all of the answers. I don’t pretend to be a scholar of the Bible because I am not. However, I am a 32-year-old married mother of 2 and I am a Christian woman who believes what The Bible says. Do I fear for my children’s future? Yes I do.  Because they are growing up in a world where outside influences teach them to hate God. In our home, we teach them otherwise. We are a family who cries when innocent victims die on the streets in Paris and San Bernadino. Columbine and Snady Hook. Movie theaters and malls. Car accidents and fires. We are a family who prays for sweet baby Charlotte’s who get diagnosed with kidney cancer at the tender age of 1 year old.  Who donate gifts/groceries/money to those in need. Life isn’t fair and I don’t have all of the answers. But I have rock solid faith in God. And I believe He will come through. His light will shine through these tragedies. We also pray for the hearts of every single individual on this earth. For hearts to soften. To know Jesus. To be respectful, loving, patient and understanding with others. Because that is what we are called to do. As The Bible says “Whoever keeps his mouth and his tongue keeps himself out of trouble” –Proverbs 21:23, but I cannot, with good conscience sit back while your headline blazes “God isn’t fixing this” without attempting to reach out to you. No one. And I mean no one knows how He has knit together our futures. Our tomorrows. Our 10 years from now.  If you have any questions about Him, His existence, or His plan than I humbly invite you to attend church with my family and me. We would be happy to have you as our guest because, (again- I’m assuming) you are frightened and confused, too. Don’t be. God’s got this.

Sincerely yours,

Ann Vaughn

Tuesday, May 12, 2015


I am becoming.
 Becoming what, you may ask? I don’t know. But I’m ok with it. There are a few things that I do know. I am more comfortable in my own skin now than I ever have been.  I have fine lines and occasional breakouts (try finding a face wash for wrinkles AND pimples ;)) I am moody, emotional, occasionally irrational and  a lil crazy. But, guess what?! I’m super proud o f who I am. I stand up for what I believe is right and I take a ton of crap for it. A ton.  I’m knee deep in “life lessons” and I’d like to take a break LOL. ;) (as you know, I like honesty on my blog…. So here it goes-) I don’t have near the relationship with God as I’d like. I’m so far away from where I want to be. Need to be... One gets betrayed and angry and she walks away?! Nope…. I need to do a U-turn! I know this. I’m trying.  
Life just made an insane shift. One that I can feel all the way down to my toenails. Robbie went from working from home 30% of the time… to being gone 90% of the time. We lost our last piece of “first life” (our  cat, Meeka, got put to sleep today…)
I have made decisions. Decisions that are pretty painful. But, it becomes too exhausting to carry the load of the past, of other people’s hurtful words, of let down expectations.
It’s an irony…. Having a social media profile or writing a blog… How do you buck the representation that your life is perfect without airing all your dirty laundry? I wish I had the answer because I hate filtered photos, I strongly dislike –daily- lovey, schmaltzy posts to a spouse (or boyfriend or g/f), because I often know the behind the scenes and it makes me cringe. It makes me want to walk away. But, I’m not a coward. A person can unfriend me because I angered them. Whose loss is that? Not mine. A person can bully me via text message for no good reason and I’m not the one suffering.  But you know what makes the irony a cruel joke? I am really happily married. I love my tiny beings with my entire soul.  I have an amazing home church with lots of developing relationships and potential. I run. I workout. I’m so so blessed. But, I hold back because I never want to appear like I’m bragging because I know the flip side of that coin.  I am tired of mean people out to hold my happiness against me- to convince me that I’m not truly happy. To convince me that I am nasty, jealous, judgmental, snobby, and arrogant. I am none of those things. I am a person learning to swing at curve balls. I am a person teaching my children to walk with a Bible in one hand and their head held high.  I am a person being forced to make decisions on a dime. Don’t like? Please know that I love you still. I am a person who has learned more in the past 3 years. The past 6 months? The past 24 hours?! Because I think I was gifted the ability to reflect on situations from an outside perspective… which is interesting because my own “self reflection” sucks. I tend to knock my own abilities and my own self worth. However, I may not be great at self-compliments or self-reflection. These are a few things that I’m certain of:

One can stand up for what they believe in and they will be called judgmental.
One can walk away from toxicity and they may be called high and mighty.
One can live a life based on biblical principals and they may be called snobby.
One can continue to walk the narrow path of individualism or
one can totally concede to earthly requests from people who may or * may not * know any better. I chose to be who I am. Because I am proud of me. I often feel lonely... Before I remember. I am never alone. I have an ever graceful God. And I owe Him everything. including some time in my Bible. Because, even though life is ridiculously hard. He has blessed me one million times over. I owe Him everything.  So. I smile. With no animosity or negativity I smile. Life is not what I would have projected it to be.
But, I smile. 

You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.  Psalm 16:11 

I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation
Psalm 13:5

And do not be grieved, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.
  Nehemiah 8:10

 The LORD is my strength and shield. I trust him with all my heart. He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy. I burst out in songs of thanksgiving.  Psalm 28:7